.​.​.​and surrender my body to the flames

by Sci-Fi Romance

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1.
Now there’s little left to say Everything we thought would last has gone away And what we gripped with all our might Has turned its back on us and fled into the night But it’s ok, cause we’re still here Huddled in the rain together And in that we should find shelter From anything to come We’re headed for the blue, the black, the stars, the flames The destination up ahead is hidden in the haze We wring our hands and burn our bridges shouting blame Fingers crossed we still can get out of our own way, someday The world has seen this all before Self–destructive drive to always even up the score An eye for an eye just leaves us blind That’s too high a price to pay for spite But it’s ok, we’re all in pain Huddled in the rain together And in that we should find shelter From anything to come We’re headed for the blue, the black, the stars, the flames The destination up ahead is hidden in the haze We wring our hands and burn our bridges shouting blame Fingers crossed we still can get out of our own way, someday ...it's not too late
2.
As the shadows pooled tonight We both needed somewhere to run to I held you and you asked where The lights on the highway lead you Now everything that we know Is hundreds of miles behind us Why should we still pretend There’s only this console between us? Let’s find a town to stop this car. And fumble around in the dark. ‘Cause even as my life disintegrates, I can’t stop wondering how you’d taste. It took tonight to realize, the one thing I can’t leave behind...is you. Hands tied by fear of failure Too much of my life just slips by Home can sometimes feel like dying You have to leave to know you’re alive But we’re here in the dark together Our old lives falling further away In this car pointed God only knows where I can’t take my eyes from your face Let’s find a town to stop this car. And fumble around in the dark. ‘Cause even as my life disintegrates, I can’t stop wondering how you’d taste. It took tonight to realize, the one thing I can’t leave behind...is you. It's you.
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A broken heart A confused mind Another battle and you’ve survived But all that’s left is your spirit Never again You tell yourself What’s the use in fighting anymore When you’re the only one who’s bleeding? The air swells with the voices of oblivion The sound of water filling lungs But your place was never among those Lost torn and shattered souls I will wait for you to surface I will wait for you to surface ...You will break the surface.
4.
I thought you were beautiful And I guess I still do Truth be told I hoped your promises were meaningful So I let myself be fooled Too easily I guess I miss your voice in the mornings And the way you’d call my name But the silence doesn’t sting like it used to So I guess I didn’t need you after all No, I guess I didn’t need you after all You shone for me like a beacon And sometimes just the fact of you Would keep me whole Your heart may be a legend But it was never meant for me And I should’ve known I guess that I still think of you too often And I’ve got my regrets But my fingers don’t remember like they used to So I guess I didn’t need you after all No, I guess I didn’t need you after all You don’t haunt my dreams like you used to So I guess I didn’t need you after all No, I guess I didn’t need you after all
5.
Driving Song 04:41
Tear away at the fading sunset Pull your hair back from your eyes Night escapes from its liquid prison Drowns my world in a pair of headlights Leave the light on by the phone On broken knees I’m coming home The clock is crying out despair Still too far if I’m not there Another hundred miles and I’ll be home Another hundred miles and I’ll be... Will you wake? And if I sleep, I’ll sleep the sleep of angels Steal my peace of mind from your eyes I’ve waited so long just to see your face To sweep your hair back from your eyes Another hundred miles and I’ll be home Another hundred miles and I’ll be...
6.
Torches at the gates Screaming village of hate Below me angry justice awaits I regret this hour’s grown late I can see the pages of history Not yet penned, but misunderstanding me Unholy thought, an abomination of man My words they’ll burn, and no one will understand One of these days I’d make a thing of beauty One of these days I’d conjure and angel What was it Lazarus said On waking up from the dead Turning science into an art My creation has broken my heart All I ever wanted was to bring life Where nature says there must be eternal night The cease of sorrow and return of breath If we can end life than why not death? One of these days I’d make a thing of beauty One of these days I’d conjure and angel One of these days...
7.
These Scars 03:39
Take me to a place where I will never be alone The light is cold in a sky of gray where I make my home I long to see a blade of green or a traveler on the road Reach out my hand and feel the life in something I can hold Place your hands upon these scars and feel What I could’ve been My deadened eyes can not reflect the flame That lived within I buried my soul as my body cried to live And begged for you If only... Doors stood open but I lacked the courage to walk through The darkness on the other side froze me in my pursuit Solitude is what I reap of a misbegotten view But while there is breath in me I yet may begin anew Place your hands upon these scars and feel What I could’ve been My deadened eyes can not reflect the flame That lived within I buried my soul as my body cried to live And begged for you Wash me... Make me clean... And I will start again
8.
It's getting where your eyes are harder to ignore Silently suggesting things I hadn't thought before Though others came and went, you're the first to think I ever could be anything other than what I've been Don't take my hand just to let it go And walk away, away from me I'll never find a way home That doesn't lead to you I've been watched and been undressed but never really seen Doesn't take much to guess the wreck I'd make of things I never meant to let you in, but still you made the choice To lay your head beside mine so I could hear your voice Don't take my hand just to let it go And walk away, away from me I'll never find a way home That doesn't lead to you I never even found a home Until I found you
9.
Lovestruck 06:31
He sees her face the way a moth sees flame But she don’t notice, she don’t feel the same She tries to find herself in other arms But all she ever finds are broken hearts He circles her like a satellite Hoping one day that she’ll understand She’ll look his way, and if he gets the chance He swears he’ll never let go of her hand He’ll never let go of her hand He confesses and she starts to pack Neither knows if she’ll be coming back He asks her to stay, but she shakes her head And soon she’s crying in a borrowed bed He screwed up but she’s his world It wasn’t like he had this planned It meant nothing but cost everything If he had it back, he’d have never let go of her hand He’d never let go of her hand Love can be terrifying Love can be what the poets have said Love can be undying Love can hang by a thread Lilies in a vase by the wall How long they’ve been there, he can’t recall He sees no light no stars no sun up high Hasn’t felt alive since he said goodbye Things got bad and then got worse Everything they were dissolved to sand He knew she could no longer feel his touch But he never let go of her hand He never let go of her hand No, he never let go of her hand
10.
Long Gone 04:59
When I remember those days I see your face lined with pain Inventing things I’d never say But held against me anyway You never knew me that well And why I just could never tell The years like water they rolled on And now every hope we had is -- Gone, gone, gone It’s gone, gone, gone Things I held to yesterday The last time you saw this face Are gone, gone, gone I guess you changed and went your way The things I thought we shared decayed I was too slow to recognize The distance growing in your eyes While you acted like a saint And chalked everything up to fate I thought you’d see you’d been wrong Now every thought of that is -- Gone, gone, gone It’s gone, gone, gone Things I held to yesterday The last time you saw this face Are gone, gone, gone I still can’t help wonderin’ If we’d been older at the end And maybe swallowed a little pride If we’d have made it to the other side But that’s gone, gone, gone It’s gone, gone, gone The things I held to yesterday The last time I saw your face Are gone, gone, gone Yeah, they’re gone... Gone... Gone.

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The debut album from Sci-Fi Romance, the performing name of Los Angeles-based multi-instrumentalist Vance Kotrla.

*All album downloads include:
- All ten album tracks
- A bonus track: an alternate version of "Frankenstein's Lament" featuring Kristin Vogel
- A full-color, 8-page digital booklet with lyrics, liner notes, photography, and all the stuff you expect to find in a digital booklet.

Similar artists: Bon Iver, The Decemberists, Blind Pilot, Ray LaMontagne, Fleet Foxes, Jason Webley, Arcade Fire, Sufjan Stevens

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released October 18, 2010

Written, performed, and produced by Vance Kotrla. All songs published by Inciting Insurrection Music (ASCAP)

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Sci-Fi Romance Los Angeles, California

Sci-Fi Romance is an independent folk band from Los Angeles that blends unique arrangements and a dark, percussive take on acoustic music into a sound that has been labeled "steamfolk." It began as the solo project of singer/songwriter Vance Kotrla.

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